Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Yes, There are restless fitful days in an ordinary life

My quiet time seems fitful this morning…. Wake up way early, start prayers and feel hemmed in by the to-list thudding thru my brain…. Pad and paper—write down the flittering thoughts and go back to praying…. Only to feel mashed down by oppressive thoughts about circumstances to very, very much beyond my control. It was a strangling prayer time and yet, I feel stretched as God tends to do at times and I walk about doing morning chores with determination…. If God is on my side who can be against me? I try not to murmur the names of who I thought under my breath—instead pray hard for each name, again and again….

May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father,
Who loved us and by His grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope,
Encourage your hearts and strengthen you in every good deed and word.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
Encourage my heart, Lord. Please.
Parts of me feel like I am going through motions today and at other times it seems like time is still and I am watching the world spin around me…. I sit on the porch swing and rock, close my eyes….
Father, please calm my restless heart.
Mr. Conductor bursts forth spilling energy and excitement in his wake….
He has lost his 4th tooth…. Pulled it out himself.
He is proud and so am I.
I laugh at is ohsocute lopsided holey grin….
This is my life right here…. Wrapped up in the goodness of these ordinary, every day things…. The things of my life that repeat day after day after day…. I don’t want to lose this view—these precious days and the glory of the ordinary- lost teeth, scraped knees, read-alouds, heartfelt prayers, sit-down suppers, daily chores and life….
I lose track of time reveling in this ordinary day…. Supper is started late…. Ms. Books and I leave for quizzing practice before it’s out of the oven…. Mr. Steady frowns slightly—we miss sit-down supper….
But come home to sit-down ice cream sundaes and gap-toothed grins, freckled faces and I hear contented sighs.
I think the loudest is my own.

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